All it took to change our lives forever, was one moment. A moment that would define the rest of our lives. Can mistakes of the past be forgiven?
For me to stay in control, I had to keep the memories locked away. Thinking back to when I lost my only lifelines, was too painful. I’d rather shut it all out and go on living my normal day to day life; not connecting, not really feeling.
Every year I go back. Back to the place that haunts my nightmares. It was torture. But seeing her face again, dulls the pain, makes everything that much brighter. I’d never be able to be in her life again; it would bring back too many painful memories. How could she forgive me, when I didn’t even forgive myself.
Only time will tell.